growing pains

i burst out in tears last evening, knowing that my dearest friend called, asking for a rendez-vous - in which i couldn't make it in such a short notice- and telling me this magnificent news.

she's moving out in january to singapore. for an internship. for a month.
i know..i know.. i might be exaggerating things.but then again, i was looking those day in which we were young and carefree. no thinking of what might lie ahead. and that our biggest issue is how to keep on volunteering without having our parents grudges.

the so-called society said that i am in my crossroad level of having finish school and going to the real world. taking responsibilities. earning money. and all that.thinking about the future. thinking about financial security.

not that i'm not excited for that. that friend of mine and i have been talking hours of nonsense on how things would be done once we get to this phase. ensuring that we're affecting the world in our own way.not the world's. but it's the world against us, here. it struck me yesterday, that even my friend is embracing the compromise with the world. i know i would compromise eventually. it's just...

we're growing up. the all 17 year old friends are now in their early 20s and ready for a serious and real and significant stuff. and as for it, i realize that they are oh-so-powerful in their very own way. and i, in my own way.

i would love to know that my existence is a piece of completing puzzle that match the other piece.
and that without it would never be quite right.