i am me.

Ah, my life has been dull. Not that I hate it, it's just dull. Predictable, well, it's actually not predictable, but even the unpredictables are easy to be predicted. I don't volunteer as much and have been finding ways to put some self searching on my own - of things. And simply random things. I go swimming alone, stay up out till late or even early in the morning to talk, go to Limau for no particular reason but to hinder on the possibilities of falling asleep when I should had been doing subtitles, go karaoke-ing for two days in a row, watch movies in this new-hype-suburb area for simply less cost (which was balanced with the cost of gas and toll way of going there). Simply random and not necessarily benefitting oneself.

It's the same old very good friend, and some new ones which added the sparks in our endless conversation. Much ado about nothing, indeed. Thus, is why I'm in my trip of looking for more. You know, the typicall human nature. Asking for more. So I thought of diving, or vacation, or some more backpacking. I met guys, not projecting anything; the hought of the future and its horrific image, yet pleasant in a way. I count my days of getting old. I count my ways of being young. Even this takes so much than you thought would have.

I am now refered as a better knowing Kakak - ecstatic since that would means that they consider my judgements though I haven't quite fulfill anything. I've interacted with people, and hope that touched some in ways. I think I did well with that.

And, well, there's that time (the 8th night, I figured, of midnight talks accompanied with numerous smell of cigarettes and not to mentioned the Bulungan chirpping  birds at 4 AM) , in which a very so-much-in-love-or-rather-just-smittening friend talked about how the past five years had been. Big stuff. Luckily the breeze that Senayan had to offer keep the whole imense talk gets too mellow, we haven't talked in such ways for a while.

The breeze had been helpful lately, especially when the sun is in love with us. Sweaty as we were, you'd find the wind as havenly blush. Ah, and seeing a friend smittening state. Heck, she said that I would be the one getting wed, when no one is actually prospctive to get me there for the time being.

I am in the state of watching and enjoying you, guys.