and oh-you-people

so, this is probably why you left. i know now. i was in love with how everybody was there, and how great the people were into this. i understand why you wanted to be involved and indulged with the ones that you share this with. i understand why it was. i have to tell you, i probably would do the same thing. backing off and taking the responsibility given. i love you for that. so, i got to feel what you felt, and i got it.

i am so beyond speechless with the visit. the first thing i did was to cry, because i was back to what home was. out of longing to spend more time breathing the air of humbleness, out of the wish to spend more time exploring what had not, and what would be possible. out of the preference to stay within the atlantis. now i know why people chose to be away, away from whoever knows, away from whoever doesn't know. and the silent mountain we saw above the cloud on our flight winked at me. i told him to be good.

thank you for the slight touch, it thrills me in a way. out of knowing that we wish to hold each other, and that you and i both knows it very well. yet, i guess, the slight shrug was all we could be. all i can stand, in fact. i almost forgot how it felt to be shrugged. i almost forgot the one i have been longing to relive the same sort of touch. it was enticing. favor to see if it would be as enticing the next time.

so now i know how you feel, and i don't think i need to bother dealing with your feeling yet again. your abscency throws yourself in jeopardy. oh, and i know you are smittening in your cocky way. the heck, you're as vulnerable as i am. don't bother to wait for me. my plans have gone down hill.