even the darkness says they believe in a thing called love

she knows it feels like - if they ever dare to- take away afs and volunteering out of her. and i think her tears fall, because of fear that this year it might happen to her. they won't dare. but if they do, it would kill her. i think she cries for the sake of she wants him to be as happy as he was. yes, she cried even more when he was. yet, she's glad at least he was.

she cries for the tear she shed, which seems to be endless; for the wait that seems to be there but not quite. for the fear that he might be lost when it's taken away, though she's quite certain, he might cope it better than she ever will.

or probably that was what she feared. of him coping it better, of her being left behind. of being strangled in this whole thing, of holding on when she wishes to move. the thing is i think she only want to move to places where he is.